|Its not what it seems, Its just what you think it. Nothings the same when you give it away.
||[Dec. 9th, 2005|04:02 pm]
|||||the starting line, saves the day, death cab for cutie..||]|
My day was devoted to nothing but learning about myself. I was calm today, and not about to spoil that with a ton of school work. Hence, I did nothing during class. Yes, I will be busy doing that this weekend, but I am trying the whole "I am not gonna worry about things" attitude and I have a good feeling about it.
I was in sort of an inner peace mood today. I know how that sounds ( britny is a whack job ) No. Thats not it at all. I just was accepting the fact that I cant always be a lively person. Theres a part of my personality that just needs some alone time sometimes away from the people who i am so accustomed to sharing everything with. I love each and every one of them, but somedays I am a loner and I like that. I dont want to be one of those fake people who always pretend that they are in "the best mood ever" and everything they are feeling is right.
I am in no way shape or form perfect. I wouldnt have it any other way.
If you havent already, you just need to accept the fact that I cant always be pushed to the limit, before i break down.
"I lie down forever wrapped in your arms. When I am lonely, its you that I wish I could be with just to tell you everything thats on my mind. Why do you make me feel so happy just to spend time complaining how bored I am? I dont know. But I do know that I like it, and I hope it doesnt change anytime soon."
I've been waiting for answers
Dancing in circles
Making me sick
I've been chained like a tiger
To hundreds of liars
All holding hands
....All I wanted was a little bit of time for me to clear my head.
Ahh. I have been tangled up in so many different circumstances. Trapped into three characters at once, and playing roles to uncomplicate things.I dont want to confuse anyone or myself, but its hard to keep track of all of whats going on. Maybe its just moody teenage problems. I dont know. I guess I dont have many answers. I just need to go with the flow that makes me happy, and not worry about any other currents trying to sway me. Thats all I can do, is be me.