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bright eyes [Dec. 21st, 2005|11:44 am]
the end of paralysis i was a statuette
now im drunk as hell on a piano bench
and when i press the keys it all gets reversed
the sound of loneliness makes me happier

i read the body count out of the paper
and now its written all over my face
no one ever plans to sleep out in the gutter
sometimes its just the most comfortable place

well i could have been a famous singer
if i had someone else's voice
but failure's always sounded better
lets fuck it up boys, make some noise

im glad you got away but im still stuck out here
my clothes are soaking wet from your brothers tears

and i fell asleep with you still talking to me
you said you werent afraid to die
i dont think that i ever loved you more
than when you turned away, when you slammed the door
when you stole the car and drove towards mexico
and you wrote bad checks just to fill your arm

ive grown tired of holding this pose
i feel more like a stranger each time i come home
so im making a deal with the devils of fame
saying "let me walk away please"

youll be free child once you have died
from the shackles of language and measurable time
and then we can trade places, play musical graves
tell them walk away walk away walk away

and im drinking the ink from my pen
and im balancing history books up on my head
and it all boils down to one quotable phrase
if you love something give it away

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(no subject) [Dec. 20th, 2005|09:22 pm]
[mood |boredbored]
[music |the starting line]

it was the last day of school today. it was a boring day. but much better than yesterday.
right now me and my dads cousins are at my house. we just went out to eat and i am stuffed. and very bored.i wish i was at my friends party because i wanted to go but i decided not to because i havent seen my cousins in forever!! we will have fun though they are spending the night and hopefully my sister and her friend arent too loud.

well theres nothing much to say...
i am bored...

the end
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(no subject) [Dec. 18th, 2005|07:49 pm]
i did something tonight that almost could have affected the rest of my {life}.

i dont know why, but i understand you now.

and we almost could have had the same fate.

i am sorry.

my judgement is impared and i cannot think for myself any more.

the knife, and the medicine cabinet got the best of me.

i love you all.

if i dont see you anytime soon, i will miss you and i love you.

i think i need some help.

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(no subject) [Dec. 18th, 2005|02:15 pm]
[mood |depresseddepressed]
[music |Death Cab for Cutie--Your heart is an Empty Room]

{i love you and miss you and wish you were close enough for me to come visit you every day. i loved talking to you and i wish you didnt have to leave me. it breaks my heart to know all of the things that youve done to yourself. but no matter what happens, i understand that it all makes sense in its beauty and tragedy, and to you its normal. thank you for writing my name down, because that means more than anything to me, and if everyone else in this world turns you away, i never will.}

I had a great weekend.
I just got back from Boyne Mountain. It was awesome.
I dont feel like explaining everything, But basically we all skiied and snowboarded and swam in their huge indoor water park, and ate A TON OF FOOD, and played cards. It was non-stop fun. But I am so tired today. I think I either gained ten pounds from all of the food or I lost ten pounds from all of the exercise.

speaking of exercise, I climbed 3,000 stairs...
in seven hours..!

Humm lets see.... I dont know...

The only thing left I have to say is that me and Dustin took a two hour walk at midnight and it was freezing, but we talked the entire time, and he is so cool. So people should really give him a chance. He's not the preppy boy he seems. And hes a lot of fun, I should know, I am his favorite cousin.. hahahaah.

I wish SOMEONE was online right now so I could tell them all about what I did.. but they're not, so I will get off..


Burn it down till the embers smoke on the ground
And start new when your heart is an empty room
With walls of the deepest blue
Home's face: how it agest when you're away
Spring blooms and you find the love that's true
But you don't know what now to do
Cause the chase is all you know
And she stopped running months ago
And all you see
Is where else you could be
When you're at home
Out on the street
Are so many possiblities
To not be alone
The flames and smoke climbed out of every window
And disappeared with everything that you held dear
And you shed not a single tear for the things that you didn't need
'Cause you knew you were finally free
'Cause all you see is where else you could be when you're at home
Out on the street are so many possiblities to not be alone
And all you see is where else you could be
When you're at home
There on the street are so many possibilities to not be alone
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doodle doo doo doo i am making time for you.... asap... [Dec. 16th, 2005|10:29 am]
[mood |busybusy]
[music |the starting line.photography]

so we had our choir concert last night and might i say we were amazing. wow. I was soo proud of us. And we got tons of positive feedback from the audience. ahhh!!

today we have no school. thank god. because i have been so busy. I finally have time to unwind.

Yesterday I went to school, and then practice right after and then my dad was late picking me up so I only had like 45 minutes to take a shower and find some clothes and do my hair and eat dinner and pack some choir things, and get back to the school with a fifteen minute drive there.. hectic!!! well i made it and then i didnt have time to eat and i thought i was going to pass out i was so hungry and then we had to go rehearse. Then we had like five minutes to do whatever, and i had to do amy nestell's hair and go to teh bathroom and eat a sandwich, i managed to do it and shove the last part of my sandwich in my mouth at the last second. Then we went and sat down and performed and then the hs band was so good. OH my god. If they recorded it i want one because that last song was amazing. Great job to all band members. And then i got home at 830 and had to do homework until 1030 and then i had to pack for our Boyne mountain trip and I couldnt find a bunch of crap and then after that i had to wash my hair and then i went to bed. Crazily busy!

Today was supposed to go to school but Snow day!! and then we are leaving for Boyne Mountain like very soon, maybe 1-ish and being back at sunday afternoon.

If anybody wants to hang out on sunday when i return, just give me a call and leave me a message on the machine. If anyone leaves a message, we always return them anyways, and i will get it.Thanks so much.

and everybody have lots of fun on our snow day!!!!!!!!

Love you all!

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I think Im in love... [Dec. 14th, 2005|10:09 pm]
[mood |awakeahh.. the single life]

I have lost my heart to two foreign exchange students. ahhh..

Luc from Netherlands..
Franco from Uruguay...

What else can I say?? I have a thing for accents, and mysterious charm.
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All I want for Christmas Is You!! [Dec. 10th, 2005|09:48 pm]
[mood |exhaustedwhats the word...??]
[music |?]

I got like five and a half hours of sleep, and then sat through nine hours of snowmobile safety class, and i was exhausted. I havent been this tired in years!

Well I hardly got a chance to see anyone this weekend. Friday I babysat and Today was very busy. It sucks when I dont get to see friends at all an entire weekend. =(

I am having lots of feelings for someone. And its so great. For those of you who dont know who it is, I'm sorry, but its terribly obvious. And I am happy once again.

I can hardly open my eyelids and move my fingers to type this. I am tired, and worn out, and very stressful, but beyond all of that, I cant help but feel good inside.

I hope everyone has a wonderful night. Best wishes, and Sweet Dreams.
Love, Britny Sharon Locke
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Its not what it seems, Its just what you think it. Nothings the same when you give it away. [Dec. 9th, 2005|04:02 pm]
[mood |artisticartistic]
[music |the starting line, saves the day, death cab for cutie..]

My day was devoted to nothing but learning about myself. I was calm today, and not about to spoil that with a ton of school work. Hence, I did nothing during class. Yes, I will be busy doing that this weekend, but I am trying the whole "I am not gonna worry about things" attitude and I have a good feeling about it.
I was in sort of an inner peace mood today. I know how that sounds ( britny is a whack job ) No. Thats not it at all. I just was accepting the fact that I cant always be a lively person. Theres a part of my personality that just needs some alone time sometimes away from the people who i am so accustomed to sharing everything with. I love each and every one of them, but somedays I am a loner and I like that. I dont want to be one of those fake people who always pretend that they are in "the best mood ever" and everything they are feeling is right.
I am in no way shape or form perfect. I wouldnt have it any other way.
If you havent already, you just need to accept the fact that I cant always be pushed to the limit, before i break down.

"I lie down forever wrapped in your arms. When I am lonely, its you that I wish I could be with just to tell you everything thats on my mind. Why do you make me feel so happy just to spend time complaining how bored I am? I dont know. But I do know that I like it, and I hope it doesnt change anytime soon."

I've been waiting for answers
Dancing in circles
Making me sick
I've been chained like a tiger
To hundreds of liars
All holding hands

....All I wanted was a little bit of time for me to clear my head.

Ahh. I have been tangled up in so many different circumstances. Trapped into three characters at once, and playing roles to uncomplicate things.I dont want to confuse anyone or myself, but its hard to keep track of all of whats going on. Maybe its just moody teenage problems. I dont know. I guess I dont have many answers. I just need to go with the flow that makes me happy, and not worry about any other currents trying to sway me. Thats all I can do, is be me.
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I will follow into the Dark.. [Dec. 7th, 2005|08:20 pm]
[mood |lovedloved]
[music |death cab for cutie]

just got done with our first scrimage.. and it was a blast.
we lost, but it was so much fun. i am in the volleyball spirit.
we dominated the second game, and i got to play the whole second game and half of the third. i was kind of off but wow. yay!
thanks to all who showed up. we love the support.

love of mine
someday you will die
but ill be close behind
ill follow you into the dark
no blinding light
or tunnels to gates of white
just our hands clasped so tight
waiting for the hint of a spark

if heaven and hell decide
that they both are satisfied
illuminate the nos on their vacancy signs
if theres no one beside you when your soul embarks
then ill follow you into the dark

catholic schools
vicious as roman rule
i got my knuckles bruised by a lady in black
and i held my tongue
as she told me son
fear is the heart of love
so i never went back

you and me
have seen everything to see
from bangcok to calgary
and the souls of your shoes
are all worn down
the time for sleep is now
theres nothing to cry about
cause well hold eachother soon
in the blackest of rooms

ill follow you into the dark

romanticide doesnt work in reality.. but it sure does in my fantasy.
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(no subject) [Dec. 6th, 2005|07:52 pm]
[mood |confusedhuh?]

am i just the kind of person who you can never reach a certain level with? someone who is always next to the best..

I dont know..
I am way over thinking this
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