||[Jan. 15th, 2006|05:07 pm]
i dont even know where to start.|
everything is so insane and beautiful.
my body is sore and my mind is racing among all of the thoughts that i have. there are millions of things i could have said, millions of things that i could have done, but none of those would have led me here.
isnt it ironic how things work out? how they all unfold into this giant web of life having thousands of possibilities and you are left with the simple task of choosing what thread you will hang onto next.
somehow it all boils down to who and what you are.we all have the capacity to revert back to our own selfish ways, but how can we ever find out our capacity for self-control if we never fight these urges?
and you never find out why things happen until after they are done. you may be in the biggest mess of your life and your whole plan for your future could be in shambles, but in my opinion, your just starting a new plan. you simply chose a different thread on the web. there are many ways to go about this, but somehow we all end up choosing the one that is right for us. so dont worry about a thing because once you get past all of the agonizing disappointments, it is then in which you become aware of the purpose of those sadnesses and realize how happy you now can be.
Chin up, world! There are brighter things ahead..